I had great plans for today. Well technically yesterday, because it’s the 23rd at 4:00 AM.
I accomplished none of them.
- This casual video is an UNFLINCHING look at how I feel about my life right now.
- I decided to put this video on my vlog channel because the content is so very different from my main channel. There’s only a tiny bit of funny in this video.
- I would like to remind viewers that I am only depressed and not suicidal.
- I am not looking for sympathy. I’m describing for you a very typical day for me. With all its regrets and limitations.
Thank you for stopping by.
~Marlies
White Padded Room 
Marlies, I wish there was a button I could push that would take your fatigue away. I would push that thing over and over again. You are such a special person, and once again, I am so incredibly proud of you for sharing these pieces of yourself with us. See why you are my hero? You struggle so much, but despite it all, you are making videos, writing, laughing, offering support and encouragement to others and pushing through! It doesn’t matter that it took you longer, what matters is that you still did it! YOU ARE DOING IT!! A small step is better than none. Remember that. You are meant to entertain and to share a message, so keep making videos and dreaming of making money one day. I believe in you so much! Please keep believing in yourself, and know that you are worthy and are not alone! I just love ya! xo
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Well gosh darnn it I’m really touched. And not the insane kind of touched. Well, that too, but you know what I mean. Your words of encouragement mean so much and I’m glad I connected with you out here in the blogosphere!! I just love ya too! xoxo
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I am SO glad we connected to! You make my life so much better! xo
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I enjoy your honesty, Marlies. Thank you for sharing your struggles. Hugs.
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UR welcome, Pearl! And thanks so much for your comments on my YT channel! That was cool!
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The answer to your question at YouTube re: spit curls:
spit curl
noun
a small curl of hair trained to lie flat on the forehead, at the nape of the neck, or in front of the ear.
It’s the only photo of a person on the page. 😉
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Ahhh….ok I see. I could have looked it up but wanted your take on it. I learn something new every day.
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Most lives are a hot mess in one way or another. Most people never share that fact. That is your strength and the inspiration that you may or may not know you provide to others. Thank you for your honesty and your courage.
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Thank you so very much for your encouraging words. Today is better than yesterday. Not too much, but I’ll take it!
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I’m so sorry. I understand wanting to just be who you used to be. Consider me just sitting with you, just being.
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